Garbage
Photo taken 15 minutes before publishing this post.
I’m always letting things get piled up to the point where the situation becomes unmanageable. And when everything becomes too much to handle, I would run away from it all.
My mentor since college, someone who saw the light inside a 17-yr old piece of trash, made me realize that I am an escapist. That instead of facing obstacles head on, I’ve been finding all sorts of means to avoid them and fooling myself into believing that the challenge has been conquered. He guided me all throughout my 6 years of college until today more than my real sister ever could, which is why I consider him my big brother whom I treasure very dearly. I remember crying like a kid in front of everyone when he announced then that he will be transferring to a new university.
Lately, he has been disappointed with me. And I know that I’ve been letting down a lot of people due to my lack of discipline and commitment. Blaming it to ‘quarter-life crisis‘ and other shit when in fact I am the one who lost control of all the garbage that accumulated. I am just lucky and blessed that despite all this, and being bitchy and bipolar to my friends, they have not left me yet.
I’ve fucked up a lot and I know I will keep doing so. In hopes that by the end of my 25th year, I can look at all the mistakes I’ve done and be proud that I have endured a lot and have grown into a better version than I was a year ago.
I need to take out the trash and start cleaning up the mess.
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Bob
April 13, 2012
Yes naman, may picture sa wall. :))))
ayla
April 14, 2012
My desk looks like this too. Let’s clean up Robx! “It always gets better” ang gawin nating battle cry.
Micamyx
April 15, 2012
What a beautiful mess this is.
Poi
April 15, 2012
The last line is such a strong metaphor. Happy Cleaning Rob! taking out trash in my place always reminds me of letting go, letting go of things that really don’t matter in my life. (wala lang. lol)
Niño
April 16, 2012
What a hot mess you are. Hihihi.
Suyen
April 16, 2012
I’m actually the same way. I still get bouts of “utter mess” but I try to get myself to snap out of it because when my “desk” looks clean, I feel better :) Let’s aim to always have clean “desks”! Kaya yan :D
Odee
April 19, 2012
don’t worry, you’ll sort it all out in time. :)) AJA!!!
Jerro Santos
April 22, 2012
The same way you do with your post before/after clicking that PUBLISH button, it’s never too late to revise, or correct a mistake you have already done. Light up. :]
Dan
April 22, 2012
If you continue keeping trash, one day you have to throw things that are really important. =)
jayvie
April 23, 2012
teh! pag kelangan mo ng kausap, text mo lang ako. namimiss ko na yung minsan magpopost ka na nasa Starbucks Glorietta ka tapos magchichikahan lang tayo. di naman kita matext kasi di ko alam # mo! hehe.
dito lang me hihi ;)
theprettymonster
April 30, 2012
I can super RELATE. Im also big mess and no matter how hard I try to clean or pretend that Im now disciplined and I could clean, for whatever reasons it’s not really programmed in my brain. And it could be harder if Im going to clean the mess of my life. :-|